The once-a-month visit

Once a month has turned out to be a satisfying schedule for sessions. The Germans say “Die Vorfreude ist die schönste Freude” – anticipation is the greatest pleasure. That’s not true, but the anticipation is certainly a large part of the pleasure. A couple of weeks before the envisaged session, I contact Mistress Bella to see if she has time for me, after having checked her Twitter feed to see that she’s not advertising sessions out of Berlin on that day. Once the session is confirmed, my imagination can take hold, and I can make some suggestions about what we might do. Obviously, the final decision is hers, and she may surprise me, or the journey we go on during the session may unexpectedly take a different route from what either of us had envisaged, but the fantasising about what we can do in an hour of painful pleasure is all part of the excellent value for money offered by a BDSM session compared with the cost-benefit ratio of other sexual services.

 

I was talking about the anticipation. Part of the pleasure is drafting an email outlining a few ideas, thinking “Dare I suggest that?”, adding things, deleting things that go too far, or would overcrowd the session: just doing this makes me wet with pre-cum. There are so many possibilities, but all you need is one or two at a time, because otherwise the session will feel rushed.

 

Another part of the pleasure is being constantly on the look-out for ideas. Porn sites are a good source, particularly when they’re inventive, like Queensnake. But also just finding things at a DIY shop, or at home, can fill you with thoughts about what might be possible. And then there are ideas which derive from the last session – something you would like more of, or which could be developed further.

 

After the session, there is so much to look back on. I generally book an hour, and it’s amazing how much can be packed into that time. Half an hour is too short, longer than an hour would be amazing, but it has to be fitted in between work and home life, and things get quite expensive. So I only book 90 minutes occasionally as a special treat, or because we’ve had so many ideas (e.g. when Mistress Bella and I were planning a session which included an enema, a disgusting meal, and stapling (the stapling scene can be viewed on Mistress Bella’sOnlyfans site, the clip from 27 February 2020). But the memories are there to be treasured. Often, when travelling on high-level missions, I enjoy wearing panties under my business attire, and have thoughts like “Today, I’m standing next to (some leading politician or business person); a few days ago, Bella had me chained to the toilet, licking the bowl.”